Thursday, September 30, 2010


Before I can hope to dive into talking about the actual paradigm shift that I feel is needed not only for my own personal life, but for the planet at large, I want to speak of what I know about polarity. In this earthly experience, the One has chosen to identify itself through the means of polar opposites. True recognition is gleaned from this system and I find it uncanny but in its own way really ingenious. The understanding I have of this world of polarities is the following:

Each and every thing has its polar opposite. Everything we experience, we can experience on either side of the polar see-saw, or on different degrees along the imaginary beam of energy that makes the see-saw a see-saw. Midway between either extreme is the pivotal point of balance. At this point (physics can easily confirm this) is inertia. In order to have movement, the see-saw needs to tip one way or the other.
In this way, inertia is overcome and motion is created. With motion comes energy flow and energy flow is life. The understanding of that life came for me through the understanding of Sir Newton's 3rd law of motion: "Action and Reaction are Equal (in force) and Opposite (in direction)"

If you desire a more nerdy explanation, you can link to Wikipedia's page:

Don't worry, I am not going to dive into a physics lesson at this point. Dear Isaac figured this out a while back and I am applying this daily in my work as a Homeopath, where energy follows the very same physical principle. Just that the "action" can also be energetic and not only physical. Ever since I can remember to think, I have been drawn to figure out the spiritual implications of everything around me. It is therefore just a hop, skip and a wee jump to assume that this law, which is so central to the healing method I use, drew me in and I just had to find out what it's implications were on a spiritual level.

For me, it is rather easy to jump out of my skin (almost literally) and dive into my Self and experience everything around me on an energetic level. Yes, I have been called "helium balloon" very often, but it's ok, once an airhead, always an airhead :) With this "skill" I have learned that the action of this law of motion can be anything - a simple thought can propel energy into a direction and cause a ripple effect that very soon gets so large that one's mind cannot logically think through all the implications it has. Just to then get a reaction equal in force in the opposite direction. Once I figured this out, the next step was to fully and wholeheartedly agree with the Eastern traditions that say: Meditate! ... Quiet the Mind! ... Yes ! I agree ! Only with a quiet mind can we begin to hope to have any guided and directed influence on the world. Just imagine this for a moment, each thought from every person on the planet creating a ripple that runs unhindered through the fabric of creation and causes a reaction of equal strength in opposite direction and  I imagine, you'll begin to meditate on the spot out of sheer necessity. It becomes a no-brainer !

Of course that is easier said than done, I had a very active loudly chattering mind in my youth, I began meditating and quieting this mind of mine down way ahead of these revelations caused by Sir Newton's law and the mind boggling implications. I did that out of sheer necessity not to go insane. Each morning, I would wake up and it felt like "just put a match to me and i'll go off like a rocket" - yes, it was that busy in my head. Now, luckily, it has quieted down to long periods of "nothing" unless i truly focus my attention on something of my choice. Life has gotten perhaps a bit more boring through this, but I certainly do feel a wee bit less responsible for the chaos out there.

To sum it up, every little thing has it's polar opposite. They are buddies, they co-exist, they define each other. So if something is experienced as painful (see my earlier posts), it has inherently the potential to be pleasurable, because it is in essence the same energy, inert at the balance point of the see-saw and split into the polar opposite experiences on either end. Recognition, awareness and thus expanded consciousness of anything involves one point of the polar duo versus the other.

Without this polarity, there would not be the experience and understanding. All would be one happy blob of oneness, undivided, unexplored, static, inert. In order for that oneness to find out about itself, so goes my theory, the system of polarity was set in place and a myriad of sparks (us) of the One were sent out to experience all the possible "this and thats".

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Pain or Pleasure

Here I am now, faced with this world where I can look around and carve out things of beauty to be grateful for, to take in as pleasurable, yet the essence, the root of the problem is that my innermost belief cries out: Watch out, there's pain to be experienced here !....

I am realizing something deep. There are these things out there, books, tapes, courses and all that New Age Jazz, where you are supposedly taught to learn how to create things. How to shape your reality. And I also realize that these things, that are wonderful in their approach, are but bandaids. I am making the mental connection to the orthodox drugs that don't really heal the sick, but make the symptoms go away - for a time, but the core illness stays the same. Since I'm in the alternative healing field, I will bring in concepts that I have learned there.

One of these concepts is the direction of cure. If something is on the way to real cure, which involves not only the going away of outer symptoms, but clearly a state of increased overall health, there are certain signs that can be seen on the outside, which indicate this "direction of cure". The ideal direction of cure is from within to without. That means at the beginning, outer, smaller symptoms do not go away right away, but the health comes from deep within, from the core of the human being. Then, it can be compared with the ripple of a pebble tossed into a still water, the effect, the movement of the healing energy goes outward and eventually the outer symptoms disappear, leaving the organism healthier than before.

With this knowledge in my mind, I could not avoid looking at what I had done for the past 25 years or so of New Age "activity"... the "Love and Light - Movement" as I call it, has wonderful amazing bandaids - drugs - whatever you choose to call it. And yes, I was part of that movement too and hadn't understood a thing as I'm finding out now. All the "Love and Light" in the world will not create a better world, because it's only a bandaid. The world ails deeply. The world is experienced as painful by many people. It has to, because look at the world we are creating - as a collective !.... it's one of pain, which is the opposite of pleasure. Those are the base drives of human kind. It's either pain, which we don't want or it's pleasure which we want. It's as simple as that. However we're trying to put images (bandaids) of pleasure onto a world of pain. There's something deeply wrong with this picture, at least for me.

Ideally, the cure of the world (yes I know, I'm thinking way big here) has to come from humanity. Humanity cannot hope to cure a world that it believes to be painful. Instead, the cure has to come from the core - the core being that my belief as that of many others is based on my experience here, it's one of pain - not always, but overall, it's the only permanent recurring essential experience I can see. Since the world is my mirror, the world I see (which is of course not the same you see), is a reflection of my beliefs, it is up to me (and each one of you who feels drawn to it) to change that core belief. A paradigm shift is needed, a shift in essential belief from pain to pleasure. It's the same energy anyways, being that they are a pair of polar opposite points connected by one energy line.

I'm getting really excited at the possibiliy here, which I will have to achieve first of course before I could even try to convince anyone, but it's quite sound logically I believe, and also in line with one of the fundamental principles of health - the direction of cure.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

The Experience of one's World

The old wisdom traditions say that the world you experience is your own creation. That strictly speaking, you could influence your reality at a moment's notice. A world of "infinite possibilities" it has been termed by Deepak Chopra for example.

I find that to be very true. Truer than I would like it to be. I've experienced many a time the miracle of a wish fulfilled, when the reality shifts and brings you that wonderful person into your life and you go down the list you had prepared while seeking him... point by point, it's all there - yes he's truly fulfilling each and every point that you were so absolutely sure, the perfect mate should have... well, yes, he has them ALL ... more than you bargained for ! Always turns out that way, it's so infinitely HUMBLING. So what went wrong then ? How could it be, that the Universe "gave" you this person, the one fitting all the points on your list and all you experience after the initial state of bliss is pain?... hmmmm....

It is said that only through pain, do we learn. Well, it's about time I'd learned then - for after boiling my last relationship disaster down to its essence, and compared it to the rest of my not so favored experiences in life - I finally found the common denominator. PAIN....

So many of my wishes did come true, too many that I could honestly say that I don't actively create my experience of this world. I often wondered what those sticks are that got magically thrown into the spokes of my turning wheels and brought many a situation to a screeching halt - over and over again ? - Different players, same story, so to speak.

Just recently, I gave it one more mighty push. I meditated for a while, felt really in tune and aligned with my higher self. It's a warm fuzzy, but also powerful feeling to be in this state. I said to myself: "ok - list up all the things you would like to see in your world" - it was quite a big list. It included material things, it included emotional states, it included healthy and happy kids - you know the whole shebang. So i had this list and felt very good about it. What an achievement. I was able to focus my mind on my next creation and so i envisioned my new world with all my might, intent and open heart, for no-one to be harmed by my creation. So it began....

The very next day - it is said that the more you are aligned with your higher self, the quicker things manifest - I was put to the test. EVERYTHING went wrong - first my emotions were pummeled by my out of control teenager, who did an amazing job at hurting my emotions for hours. Then I realized that I needed a break and went to mow my lawn. I started the mower and pulled out the starter cable in one swift motion - to find my hand hitting the wooden play structure hard. Tears rolled down my face by now, it really hurt and thankfully the noise of the lawnmower swallowed any curses that came out of me. So i had my emotions pummeled, my body hurt and I was quite a wreck already.

My lovely daughter had meanwhile recovered a bit from her drama, just to begin talking to me incessantly. There was nothing I felt I could do to make her stop - My brain started to hurt like crazy and I feared going somewhat insane. I took another time-out and retreated to my room. I stood there, flabberghasted and let review pass - This day had been totally insane. I got hurt so bad and all I wanted was for it to stop. I was clearly at a breaking point and desperately cried out to the Universe: "This is too strange, what is going on???"
I do not know why It took me 49 years to find out about my mistake, but hey, time is an illusion, so the very moment you find your epiphany, that's a good moment in my book. The message that came so clearly to me after having asked the pertinent question was: "you believe that the physical world is one of pain, hence you can only experience it as one of pain."

Trust me, I sat down somewhat shellshocked at that humbling epiphany. There I was, trying to cover up my experience of pain in the physical world with nifty creations of reality - to find that the very core of my experience on the physical plane is messed up. In order for my beautiful new creations to manifest, my base idea of this physical world has to change...

There is no Linear Beginning

Although there is possibly a time line in which I have experienced, learned and arrived at my current viewpoints, it is a rather difficult task to sort it all out and put it into a sequence. Hence I'm going to go with my inner flow and begin with something, even if it's not "in line" with that silly notion of time.

I must say, that the thoughts I hope to publish here are residing in my brain, however not all of them have been born there. I intend absolutely no plagiarism and will naturally quote sources wherever I am aware of them.If I happen to omit one and my readers realize it, please know that It is an oversight and not done so on purpose. I will correct such oversights if and when it is needed and most importantly pointed out to me. 

The main reason for this blog is that my head cannot possibly hold all the information I have gathered in the last 40 or so years and I have not enough people to share my thoughts with, because some of them (the thoughts) are quite "out there" and perhaps a bit whacky, (let's be frank, I would run  the horrible risk of becoming friendless within 2 weeks if I unloaded onto my dear friends) I have learned not to alienate folks too much, when I pick my kids up from school, where I'll talk about "regular stuff". However, this all creates this backlog in my head that is by now screaming for release - Paper (or virtual paper) is quite patient I heard and many things have been written way ahead of their time (oh fool me ?).  Based on that premise I have now gotten into the spot of courage (or call it desperation?) from which I will let the thoughts flow that reside within me. ..... watch out...

It is my vision that after my initial posts, comments will come forth and I could see myself entertaining some questions as well. Mainly, I hope for a dialogue through comments and bring this blog into it's very own state of flow. 

As a last disclaimer, I would like to say that as a teenager, I've decided to abdictate any form or formal religion and seek my own way to what is termed "enlightenment" (big word, vastly misunderstood). I am not affiliated with anyone or anything. What you will read hereafter are my very own perceptions and understanding of "how things react...etc." I will draw from everything I've learned in this lifetime and from glimpses beyond the veil as well for which the only "proof" is your own experience. I ask you to only take to heart whatever resonates within yourself as "right" or "true" and to kindly leave the rest to the depth of virtual bloggerspace. I have experienced a lot of attack on my views in the past, and hope that with a sense of curiosity and lack of prejudice and judgment, I can keep my blog peaceful and informative. I do not intend to change anyone's mind, but you may find that it changes on its own.

Onward then, done with disclaimers and explanations - ready for the first real tidbit,